May 27, 2011

Foto Friday

[yes with beer and scribbles in front of us]

This is why we're hott...

May 26, 2011

Me, confused? Hell yes.

I was letting my mind go off on tangents the other day when all of a sudden I realized, I really actually do not know what I want. At all. Thoughts of work, money, family, friends, love, crushes, summer & all things future-related clouded my mind. It only lasted a few seconds but it ended with my brain screaming

I'm well-aware that that was probably all fueled by love frustrations, considering that the next night I had this mini-rant:
Seriously, I don't even know what to say or think anymore. There are no dating rules, no guidelines. No single thing is valid 100% of the time because every person & situation is completely different, whether it's obvious or not. You just gotta go with it. Fuck."

This past weekend I also went to the driving range with a guy [friend] from work. He may or may not have paid for that...and dinner afterwards. And he drove. Vik tactfully noted that 'as far as he was concerned, this was clearly a date.'

Honestly? I don't even care anymore. Really. I am sick & tired of over-analyzing every situation and every conversation just to come to no conclusion at all! I had a good time & frankly that's all that's important. Do I like him? Maybe. Is it mutual? Maybe. Am I over my last crush yet? Probably not. Do I still have unresolved feelings for #Rockstar? Oh yes. Does it really fucking matter? Umm, not really.

I've done the 'waiting around for the right thing/time' often enough to know that waiting is stupid. Life doesn't stop. So I'm just going with the flow & whoever wants to come along for the ride is welcome to, but I don't want my life to pass me by like this.

Happy 1st Bloggy Birthday!

D'you know what is so surreal? Letting it sink in that I've been blogging for a whole year! It's the best decision I've ever made because it has turned out to be an amazing experience! I've had a great time writing and reading, and getting to know a lot of new people! :)
I won't bore you with more crap - check out my very first post & some top reads from the last year!

May 25, 2011

Long Weekends #FTW

Now that the Challenge is over, I'll be back to my regular posting! And don't worry, not the 'regular' posting from before the challenge - my writer's block is lifting! Also, I'll be posting trip pictures soon - really behind on that.

So this past weekend was a long one in Canada - the kind that every weekend should be! Despite some minor setbacks - like the completely false weather forecast! - it turned out quite well :)

After a mostly unproductive day at work, we fast forward to Friday night - I'm lookin' hott at a wicked night club with free Grey Goose flowing! Ya in hindsight, I seriously regret free GG because that was like, the sloppiest night ever. How many drinks did I have? Couldn't tell ya - all I know is I had the same glass all night and it kept being refilled. Bad idea. Very bad.

Stumbled home, slept with my contacts still in & makeup still on, was still drunk at 7am when I finally took them off & got some pjs on, could barely move all day & hated myself for it all day because it was supposed to be the only sunny day of the entire weekend.
I turned that shit around though because I hate regret - made a delicious chicken dinner & crossed off one of my top things from my [mental] Bucket List - went to the movies solo :) It was as good as I had always thought it would be. Well ok, I did have a date - Matthew McConaghey. #LicolnLawyer

Took a lovely walk in the city & discovered an extremely lovely neighbourhood in Toronto - Leslieville! I can't wait to go back - right by the beaches with fantastic little shops!
That night I made a delicious dinner with one of my besties & went to see #Bridesmaids. So. Freaking. Good. I hate 'going with the crowd' when it comes to movie opinions but I can't deny that I did not stop cracking up the entire time. GO SEE IT!

The weather had major PMS this day. It's gonnaaaaaa....NOT rain! Mwahahhahaha Asshole. So glad I decided to go to the driving range to take my clubs out for their first time. Well, I just said decide for me because I suck at decision-making. Then we had dinner at swanky Moxie's before heading home in a torrential downpour. It was fitting - got to relax after an eventful weekend listening to the rain :)

I'm seriously excited to be over my writer's block & get back into sharing stories & tidbits with ya'll! Also very excited about being caught up on all your posts! Nothing beats Google Reader saying zero! Haha

Catch ya soon!

May 24, 2011

May 23, 2011

The Challenge - Day 31

Day 31 - A picture of yourself

Summer 2010, BG
Summer 2010 was epic - Summer 2011 is going to be that much better!!! :)

Who's got big summer plans? Do share!

May 22, 2011

The Challenge - Day 30

Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss

Summer 2010, BG

I miss this lady bunches! She's my cousin's gf & they live in BG so I can't see her whenever I want. But when we're together, it's good times & as if we were never separated. Can't wait for her to come visit one day!

The Challenge - Day 29

Day 29 - A picture that can always make you smile

Summer 2009
This picture can always make me smile b/c I love this lady & what we share; and b/c this is around the time I started changing my attitude towards life and I haven't looked back. Just letting loose & not being so overly high-strung about everything has really paid off & made me a happier person :) This girl came along for the ride! :) 

May 20, 2011

The Challenge - Day 28

Day 28 - A picture of something you're afraid of


May 19, 2011

The Challenge - Day 27

Day 27 - A picture of yourself & a family member

circa December 2007 - both so much littler, but esp Nicole!
My baby sister. Even with the 8-year age difference, we've definitely had some great times - like the photo shoot which provided the above pic. But now that she's 17, we mostly fight about how she's a douchebag teenager. Excuse this parent-sounding question but - they DO grow out of it, right?! I'll try to love her anyway :P

May 18, 2011

Interruption - Softball Season Song VOTE!

Alright ladies & gents, I’m going to need your help and I want you to know that this is very, VERY important.

I’m playing softball with work this year & there are several requirements. None of which are the ability to throw, catch or hit a softball. The one that is giving me trouble is the selection of a walk out song. See, told you it was important!

Seriously though, this has been a big dilemma in my life for the past 2 days - this song is gonna rep me for an entire season!

I’ve at least managed to narrow it down to the following so please VOTE!!!
Note: The song will play for no more than a minute - walk out + striking out batting. Click the links if you need a refresher.

Feel It - Three 6 Mafia
Please vote in the comments section & share get others to vote too!!! :))


The Challenge - Day 26

Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you

The necklace I wear everyday [unless i'm fancying it up]

D - gift from mom for high school grad
Cross - from a monastery in Bulgaria
Heart - from my Godmother
Madonna - my oldest necklace charm, also from Bulgaria
Evil Eye - to keep bad luck away, also from Bulgaria

I wonder what others would put for this day - thoughts?

May 17, 2011

The Challenge - Day 25

Day 25 - A picture of your day

Pretty much your usual variety of events & emotions. ps: that's men's suit shopping haha

May 16, 2011

The Challenge - Day 24

Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change

That's right - nothing. I've worked very hard to rid myself of the awful habit of living with regret so I refuse to think about things that I'd want to change. Lookin' ahead!

May 15, 2011

The Challenge - Day 23

Day 23 - A picture of your favourite book

Not only are these great books, but they're what turned me into a bookworm! #nerdalert

May 14, 2011

The Challenge - Day 22

Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at

I just got my first set of golf clubs the other day & I can't wait to go out & start practicing :))

The Challenge - Day 21

*Sorry for the disruption in posts, Blogger was down*

Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget


All seriousness aside - I wish I had never watched this movie & killed so many brain cells. Never again doing majority rules when going to the movie theatre.

Did anyone else see this!?

The Challenge - Day 20

Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you'd love to travel

Hawaii may be a bit 'predictable' but I think it's the ultimate paradise!!!

The Challenge - Day 19

Day 19 - A picture & a letter

The night I met Rockstar - this is the only picture we ever took together - clearly our love was doomed right from the start.

Dear Rockstar,

I'll never fully be able to explain to myself, let alone to others, what exactly it is about you that makes me feel the way I feel but I'll always be grateful for it. No man has ever filled me with such purely positive emotions and to think how little time it took you to achieve that is just plain craziness. There's just so much I loved about you, which is why it's been so difficult to forget you & move on completely.

I loved...
* our instant chemistry
* that you found my drunkeness so charming
* that you didn't mind repeating what you'd already told me (twice) on our first date
* your ability to take initiative & make decisions [since I can't]
* your epic communication skills that kept our relationship free of mind games
* the time you called me to prove you were getting sick but still wanted me to come down & meet your friends
* your sense of humour that was a perfect match for mine
* how you knew that double vodka sodas with extra lemons would keep me happy all night long
* our pillow talk
* our Californication bond
* the fact that we never ever ever ran out of things to say to eachother
* your sense of family & loyalty
* our last day together
* the fact that I have so much respect for you that I could never be mad at you or say a single bad thing

It doesn't seize to amaze me that the thought of you still sometimes causes instant tears. Regardless of what does or doesn't happen, you own a piece of my heart that will love you forever & I wouldn't have it any other way.

Your biggest fan,

May 10, 2011

The Challenge - Day 18

Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity

Essentially acknowledging the fact that I just may not be good at everything that exists in life, and failing at being perfect. It's a difficult existence.

May 9, 2011

The Challenge - Day 17

Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently
Moving to Toronto is the best thing I could have done with my life - I've grown personally & professionally and have never wanted to look back!

May 8, 2011

The Challenge - Day 16

Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you

John & I @ Uni grad after-party, June 2009
John & I spent the majority of our 4th year of university discussing how we want to move to Germany. The difference between him & I is that he actually found a job & moved there without knowing a lick of German, and I'm too much of a scaredy cat to do the same. John is living the dream for the both of us :)

May 7, 2011

The Challenge - Day 15

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

Remember how I'm a hopeless romantic...

May 6, 2011

The Challenge - Day 14

Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without

mama, baby sis, cousin & me
Life without these women would be impossible.

May 5, 2011

The Challenge - Day 13

Day 13 - A picture of your favourite band or artist